It's about time!

It's been way too long. So much as happened... It will take forever to tell the story of my life (well, what's happened in the past two months). Sooooo, I'm going to summarize as much as possible. It's a little hard to do that, though, when you have so much to say... Here it goes.

I can honestly say that if you had come up to me 6 months ago and told me I would be doing what I'm doing, I would have NEVER believed you. I really love my life exactly as it is. If you had told me that's how I would feel now, I probably would have laughed in your face. I realize now that my life was so not what I wanted. I love that I just do what I want. I do what's gonna make me happy. Of course, I still care about other people, I just care about me more :).

Well, I quit my job at UT. I'm working back at Parkside Grill. I know, I said I would never serve tables again. But, I realized it's the best way for me to make money while I'm in school. I reconsidered. I'm loving working there now. That brings me to my next point. I met a guy that works there.

His name is Jason(he's the guy up there in the picture with my sister and I). He's a really nice guy. I really like him. We go on dates. Yes, actual dates. I'm pretty sure I've never been on a "real date." That's sad, right? Yeah, well, now I know they're great. Going to dinner and not paying? Um, yeah, that's great too. David never did anything like that for me. I realize now that it's way better this way. We'll see how the whole thing goes with Jason, I guess. I don't wanna jump into anything too fast, though. Because, as John puts it, I'm "in repair." :).

That brings me to my next point... My dad, my sister, and I went to JM concert in Atlanta at the end of August. Can I just say I wish I was back in those moments everyday. We had so much fun. We were dancing, singing, and I was crying. Yeah, I cry at every concert :) it's just so beautiful...hehe. Well, the dancing/singing thing could have been caused by the 4 20 oz beers we had. God, did we have fun though. It was the time of my life.

My friend, Alex, is my new best friend. We talked about everything for a long time i.e. our feelings about eachother, what the hell we're doing. We just understand eachother and I truly believe he was put in my life for a reason. He's such a good person and I'm so grateful for him. If you had told me 6 months ago that my best friend would be male, I would never believed you.

Katie Kazprsak and I have kind of grown apart just because we're so busy with other things. But we're trying to get things back to the way they were. We're going to do our favorite thing tonight actually. Wine night at Sunspot! I love it!

I absolutely love living with Chasity. We have so much fun and she's a good person. She's always there for me.

I feel like I'm kinda messed up because of everything. It was easy at first because I just got through it. Now, I'm thinking about everything in pretty great detail. The details scare me sometimes and I wonder if I'll ever be completely ok. As John says (I know, I know...) "I'm in repair. I'm not together but I'm getting there." I guess it just takes time. I'm really happy... I'm more than happy. I'm finally at peace for the first time, in a long time. It's just hard to sort through all my feelings. I'm trying really hard, though.