I'm BACK!

Hello, hello! I've heard so much positive feedback about my Paris blog (thanks everybody!) so I've decided to just continue with this thing. I absolutely love it so why not? I never thought my life was too interesting (well, that's probably because it wasn't). I can honestly admit now, however, that my life is anything but ordinary or boring. I've been told that I should write a novel or something. I don't know if anything like that will ever happen but I don't care. Know why? Because this makes me feel good... I like it... it helps me... and everyone enjoys it. So it's ok if this blog is never read by anyone but you and me :).

I returned from Paris two weeks ago :0! It's been way too long, I know. I miss it terribly but I love being home. It's like a huge oxymoron- I want to be there and here at the same time. I met THE MOST amazing people I've ever met in my life. In case anyone doesn't know, I've recently made some changes in my life. I hate making my life sound like this big project that I'm constantly working on but that, my friend, is what it is. I left my boyfriend of 7 years... well "left" is not the right verb. There really isn't a one word description for what I did. I decided that I'm too deserving of something better than him. This realization occured in Paris. Was it Paris? Yeah, kinda. It was kinda Paris, kinda the new people, mostly my own personal newfound decisiveness. I just don't want to live the way I was living anymore. I will forever keep to myself some of the experiences I had in the past 7 years because that's not what's important. What is important is that the experiences were experienced and now, it's over... so over. My mom and sister have cried several times... I just can't do it. I've cried so much for so long and now, it's time for me to smile and [gasp!] even laugh. I'm sorry for doing what I did because I know many of you saw me through this stupid-ass situation for way too long. So, thank you so much and I'm so sorry.

Enough with that! It's such a happier place in my mind. I just feel incredibly at peace. It's a great feeling that I've honestly never felt before. On that note, I'm experiencing another brand new feeling. I'm a christian and I believe in God but never until recently did I feel like I'm being watched over. I feel like all these little (some big) things are happening that make it obvious that every little thing happens for a reason. I don't know maybe I'm just full of shit but maybe, just maybe, I have a guardian angel :).

Since I've been back, I've been staying with my parents. I didn't even go back to my house. Weird, huh? It sounds odd but I don't really mind at all. I'm basically living out of the suitcase I took to Paris, haha. I mean, I had everything I need so it's all good. Katie was here until last Wednesday then she left for DC and Arizona with her boyfriend. We had a pink-champagne night at her apartment. Well, that's what we called it but we actually drank our signature: red wine. We made pasta. It was alot of fun. I've stayed with her some at her apartment and I'm sure I will when she gets home tomorrow. Tomorrow! I'm so excited. I miss her a little :).

She introduced me to two of her good friends, Blake and Alex. They are awesome guys.

I have summer classes going on right now. I have two classes back to back EVERYDAY. It isn't too terribly fun but I've gotta get done with school! I just want to graduate so bad. It's worth it. Orie's in one of the classes with me- our professor is goofy but really funny.

So, basically, since I've been back from Paris, I've been happier than I've been in awhile. I want to get back in my house, though. Jeremy is gonna live there with me. AND I've decided to get a big guard dog and put up a fence in my backyard for it. I'm quite excited about that.

So, thanks for reading this one just like you've read the rest. I hope you like it, hope it reminds you of something fun, hope you get something out of it. That's what it does for me :).