Ladies & Gentleman...

Whoever said all that stuff about... "too much of anything is a bad idea" thing... yeah, they're right. Don't you hate it when you get so caught up in one little thing and that's all you can think about? It happens to me alot... I think because I analyze everything (I'm a psych major, it's a given). I think about specific things for WAY too long. Then, I can't get them out of my head. Sometimes I wish my brain would just let me rest. BUT! NO! We can't do that.. .we have to make sure I know every aspect of the reasoning behind the one word someone said three days ago. Ok, here I go again with the relating-to-John-Mayer-songs thing that I do. The song "New Deep" is about a need/want for a discontinuation of analysis of life. He says he wants to "find out just how boring [he is]." That's what I want. I want to know that my life is not this complicated. It can be simple, right? Just do the right thing (or what you think is right at the time being) and stand behind your choices 100%? Right? I don't think it works like that. There's something to be said about doing the wrong thing every once and a while. How else would we ever know how great the right choice is? We would never know... we would never know the difference.
When I think about the way my life is headed it's the largest contradiction known to man. Ok... maybe not but it's the largest I've ever faced. I know I should be happy about where it's going... and believe me, I REALLY AM. Sometimes, though, I wish I take a peak at the final picture. It would be like a movie preview. I could do music to it and everything. It wouldn't show the ending, of course, because the real ones never do. They sure as hell give you a pretty good indication of what's to come. At least you know what the movie's about. I don't even know the plot line to my life. I thought I used to when I was with David. Really, I didn't... I imagined it, I concocted it in my little head to be this perfect scenario. Movies don't work like that. They are what they are. Once one thing happens, you can't very well completely turn the story around. People don't change.
If you didn't believe me when I said I analyze every detail of everything everywhere all the time. Just re-read the last paragraph :). Until next time.... <3